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The Spiritual Side of ED Recovery

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frusterated with nobody to talk to [Sep. 30th, 2009|04:43 pm]
The Spiritual Side of ED Recovery


[mood |morbidly obease]

my first starvation diet was in 1988-I was 8 yrs old,it has only gone downhill.

currently I am 5ft5 and 110lbs,I see a whale in the mirror or maybe a walrus!I cant stand this anymore,stuck in this thinking process.I see my reflection on every store front,mirror,car window ext..and they all look like circus mirrors,there I am in my size 1 jeans shaking my head at the reflection,pointing my finger,yelling at her-"you fat ugly worthless nobody!"

I want to loose up to 20lbs.why cant I get rid of this 2 decade obsession?

I know I am ill.on top of this I have schizophrenia and epilepsy.go me,right?(sarchasm)

[User Picture]From: kalakumari
2009-10-28 06:23 pm (UTC)
I've got the 2 decade obsession again too. I had to go buy some new clothes because I actually did gain weight, and having clothes that fit properly helped me feel better. I still have that voice saying "lardass" and that sort of thing. I can't stand the sight of my nude body. It just doesn't look like me. I'm trying to just ignore it for now because I have other health problems to deal with. Are you able to see a doctor?
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From: ssristudy
2009-11-10 06:03 pm (UTC)

please see a doctor

I am a psychology student that struggled with EDs my entire life as I was raised in the world of professional ballet. Seeing a psychologist that clicked with me and surrounding myself with those that love me helped me pull out more than anything.
please go see someone
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