|frusterated with nobody to talk to
||[Sep. 30th, 2009|04:43 pm]
The Spiritual Side of ED Recovery
my first starvation diet was in 1988-I was 8 yrs old,it has only gone downhill.
currently I am 5ft5 and 110lbs,I see a whale in the mirror or maybe a walrus!I cant stand this anymore,stuck in this thinking process.I see my reflection on every store front,mirror,car window ext..and they all look like circus mirrors,there I am in my size 1 jeans shaking my head at the reflection,pointing my finger,yelling at her-"you fat ugly worthless nobody!"
I want to loose up to 20lbs.why cant I get rid of this 2 decade obsession?
I know I am ill.on top of this I have schizophrenia and epilepsy.go me,right?(sarchasm)